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What I'm Learning About ... Singleness

One doesn't have to be the loneliest number.
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Singleness doesn't have to be all doom and gloom. In fact, much can be gained from seasons of waiting. Here are some tips from our contributors on how to stay focused on Christ while making the most of time spent alone—whether it be 20 minutes or 20 years.

Camerin Courtney


I'm not ashamed to admit it: I spend a lot of time alone. I'm a never-married 30something woman who has no children, who lives alone, and who spends most days in an office by myself. And in all my years of alone time—eating alone, driving alone, sleeping alone—I've learned a valuable lesson: Alone isn't the same as lonely.

I'll be honest, some of this truth sunk in by default as I felt and observed loneliness in the most unusual places. Several years ago I attended a Chris Tomlin worship concert with friends. Standing in this crowd of a couple thousand people, with eyes closed, arms raised, and voices joined, I felt a searing stab of loneliness.

I'd been experiencing a "dark night of the soul"—lobbing questions heavenward and sensing nothing but silence in return. So standing there amidst people who seemed so sincere while singing "How Great Is Our God" made me feel like an outsider in this community of faith. Like an orphan looking in the window at a family feast.

Likewise, several years ago I walked with a friend through a very lonely time in her marriage. Due to some unusual receipts and phone records she'd found, she began to suspect her husband of only a year was cheating on her. It took many lonely months for her to recover from his emotional affair.

And not too long ago I received a phone call from a friend who's the mother of twin toddlers. She'd been watching her girls solo over a three-day weekend while her husband was out of town on business. Now that he was back, she was lonely for some grown-up girl time, which I tried my best to provide at an impromptu gathering at our neighborhood Starbucks.

In these and many other experiences, I've observed a key distinction: Alone is the absence of people, while lonely is the absence of connection. Loneliness is a disconnect with the community we were created to crave.

Oh sure, lonely and alone sometimes occur simultaneously. I've had my fair share of lonely Me Nights during friend-shifts, after break-ups, when I've gotten lazy about my social life. When I let them, these lonely moments are needed nudgings to reach out, to risk new friendships, to lean into God more. In my weaker moments, I just cry it out.

But I've also experienced some Me Nights that are altogether splendid. I love munching on takeout from the Chinese restaurant around the corner and watching a subtitled flick I couldn't get anyone else to sit through with me. In this scenario, I don't have to be coworker, friend, daughter, sister, aunt, church member. I get the delicious freedom just to be. Alone, all of your personality is able to unfurl and fill up all the spaces of your home. Like airing out a well-used blanket. Like stretching muscles after a long flight.

When I'm home alone—watching a movie, reading a book, washing dishes—I get to hear myself think. And talk, since I often carry on an audible conversation with myself. In listening to the dialogue that comes tumbling out when I'm alone, I often hear feelings, thoughts, dreams, and joys I wasn't conscious of before. Alone, I've thanked God for raspberries, dreamed up new articles, remembered faraway friends to e-mail, and sometimes broken into spontaneous song or dance.

Sometimes in this thinking aloud, I come face-to-face with pains I need to feel. So often the busyness of life drowns out these feelings, sometimes by design. But with just my thoughts and words filling the air, I'm forced to see and feel them—painful but necessary steps in dealing with these issues. And bringing them to God.

In so doing, these conversations often turn into prayers—even as I make my bed or cook dinner. There's something right about discussing the drama of the day with God while I'm up to my elbow in suds and dirty dishes. Experiencing God in the mundane moments of life—right where I need him.

In the past year I've made two new friends who are newly single—a 30-year-old divorcee and a 63-year-old widow. As these women have faced new stretches of unanticipated alone time, it's been great to be able to tell them that being alone doesn't have to be a fearsome thing. Actually, it's something we can embrace. And perhaps that's part of the secret—coming to alone moments expectantly, asking God to meet us there and fill the empty spaces as he sees fit.

And in so doing to remind us of a glorious truth that we can't really grasp in the presence of others: We're never truly alone anyway.

Camerin Courtney is a former editor for Today's Christian Woman magazine.

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August 2011

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JENNIFER

January 30, 2012  8:48am

I like this article very much. We don't always have influence over our circumstances, but we can let God influence our hearts in all circumstances. I like Kathi's point, too, about the lack of deeper connections. I want those, but am hard-pressed to establish them. I'd rather have two or three intimate friends than many superficial connections. Unfortunately, I don't meet many who want to cultivate that. Very often, I'm taken aback by those people refer to as "friends".

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Tress

January 06, 2012  4:55pm

I am over 40 and single (never married). There are times when I feel lonely, but I know that I am never alone. God is always with me. I believe that He wants us to reach out to Him in our times of loneliness. He desires for us to spend time in communication, worship, and fellowship with Him. We should put all of our focus and energy on Him when we start to feel lonely.

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The Hair Gospel

December 16, 2011  6:28pm

we enjoyed the article... in Christ one can never be the loneliest number. We actually need more women like you that are free to do more for the Gospel-because you have time to use your talents. Enjoy the experience and keep doing more for God-someone is always watching you.

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