Have you ever wanted to hide? I mean really hide where no one could find you? I remember a particular mommy moment when I had escaped to the garage away from one too many buts.
But I don’t want to!
But you SAID I could!
But she broke it, not me!
It was the next one that knocked me over the edge.
But she licked her fingers and then wiped them on me!
I remember sitting down on the grimy garage floor and thinking, Lord, I need a break from these people.
Jesus understands the deep urge to get away. We read in several places where Jesus removed himself from the crowd to get by himself. In Matthew 15, Jesus sent the crowd away, got into a boat, and sailed off by himself. In Matthew 4, he went to the desert for many days to pray, and in Luke 5, the Bible tells us that Jesus often withdrew to the wilderness to have some time alone. I can’t begin to know all that Jesus was feeling in these moments, but I wonder if he ever felt like I did in the garage. These people! They want and want and want! They are flat out wearing me out!
It’s in those moments when my heart needs a moment. A moment to recognize how small I am and how big God truly is. It’s in these moments that I’m reminded of my verse, Zephaniah 3:17. Yes, it’s mine. I’m positive God put it in there just for me, with my name on it that somehow got lost from the page in translation. It goes like this: Sherry, this is God speaking, and I am with you wherever you go. I am big enough to save you, Sherry, and not only you, but I’m bigger than anything you will face in your day. I know you get overwhelmed, but I’m rejoicing over you with gladness even in the moments when you lose it. I will quiet you with my love, if you will just let me. I see you even when you don’t want to be seen, and I’m singing over you in a loud voice.