Looking Back

If I could change any parts of my life, would I?

I glanced up from my desk, and for what seemed to be the hundredth time that week, my eyes fastened on a sign that read: "To err is human, but to really foul things up takes a computer." I groaned as I thought, Computers may make writing easier—but they don't make my life easier!

Despite the frustration my computer occasionally causes me, there's one thing about it I cherish—its "delete" key. What a wonderful little gizmo! With one press of a button, it completely erases an unwanted letter, word, or document.

Yesterday, I wished I could press some kind of delete key and undo a bit of my life. I'd erase the ten minutes of major hail that fell and caused our bathroom skylight to leak—again. Oh, and I'd abolish the thirty minutes I spent toiling at my desk while the spaghetti sauce I put on low boiled over—not only on to the stove top, but on the rug as well. I'd like to undo at least those moments!

But that's minor stuff. I'd love to do away with some major painful, embarrassing, frustrating, even difficult events in my life.

For example, when I was in high school, my mother almost died following surgery. Several times her heart stopped, and worry, like an ugly vulture, hovered over our home. I saw my father cry for the first time, and it broke my heart. I'd love to delete those weeks of heartache and pain.

Forty-five years later, I still have nightmares about the time my husband, Jack, and I broke off our engagement during my senior year in college, causing me feelings of humiliation, bewilderment, and rejection. It would be great to erase those months!

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