Pattie Mallette, mom to pop sensation Justin Bieber, says it was when she was hospitalized as a teen after attempting suicide that she first encountered God's presence.
Raised by a single mom, Pattie began to experience sexual abuse as a three year old. The abuse continued for years, along with Pattie developing an addiction to drugs and alcohol and engaging in a series of unhealthy relationships. At 17, she threw herself in front of a truck, which narrowly missed hitting her. Pattie's mom then took her daughter for treatment.
Pattie outlines her story and the restoration she's experienced in her book, Nowhere But Up. She is also executive producer of Crescendo, a short film dedicated to raising money in support of pregnancy centers around the world. Pattie, 37, is now using her platform to talk about the hope and healing found in Christ. Here, Pattie shares with TCW about growing in her faith and experiencing healing along the way.
What happened when you were hospitalized for attempting suicide?
A Christian man from a youth center where I used to hang out visited me in the hospital and en-couraged me to turn to God. He kept saying, "What do you have to lose? If God is real, see what he has planned for your life."
At first I doubted if God really could forgive me. I felt filthy and so far gone. At one point, I closed my eyes and saw all of my sin before me. I asked God for forgiveness. Then his presence came over me from head to toe. I was cleansed. I wept with tears of relief, gratitude, and hope. From that moment on, I wanted to know more.1