I go through the motions (prayer, reading Scripture, and going to church), but am I really getting it?
Sometimes, yes, I am really connected to God. But life gets busy and I get sidetracked. I have a praise and I shoot up a thank you prayer to God. I have a problem and I shoot up a prayer for help. Often I think I know what God's response is without really listening for it. I assume I know what God wants me to do or learn from a situation without really going directly to him.
I need to go to God first and ask him for help. Deuteronomy 4:29-31 states: "From there you will search again for the LORD your God. And if you search for him with all your heart and soul, you will find him. In the distant future, when you are suffering all these things, you will finally return to the LORD your God and listen to what he tells you. For the LORD your God is a merciful God; he will not abandon you or destroy you …."
It's never too late to turn to God and get the answers. It's never too late to admit you've been wrong. The catch is we have to listen to his answers. Most likely they won't come in the form of a burning bush or even an audible voice. They come in a quiet whisper, in something that nudges at your spirit and makes you think.
God wants to speak directly to you. Embrace that truth. The Creator will speak directly to you. Go ahead: Sigh and say no more relying on myself, I will rely on God!
"Just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts."
Adapted from TCW article "Listening to God" by Liz Sovern.