I Was Bullied As a Child

. . . and it still hurts
I Was Bullied As a Child

"Cripple. You’re a cripple. You don’t belong here!” Seconds after I heard the jeers, I felt the sting of gravel hitting my back. It scattered along the path, and I heard a group of boys laughing. I looked up to see who they were, but they were hidden from view.

As the pelting continued, a short, heavy-set boy stepped out of the shadows. He laughed as he imitated my pronounced limp and lightly pushed me in contempt. I tried to maintain my balance, but, within seconds, I collapsed on the pavement.

Immediately, the boys dispersed and it was silent. The area was deserted. I was alone.

I sat there for a minute, fighting back the tears and trying to collect my thoughts. I didn’t know who had done this, and I didn’t know why, but I was ashamed. Something was wrong with me.

I didn’t know who had done this, and I didn’t know why, but I was ashamed.

Since I couldn’t get up without help, I waited to see if anyone would come by. Eventually, I dragged myself to a nearby rock and painstakingly pulled myself up. Relieved that no one saw me, I picked up my books, collected my composure, and began the short walk to my house.

I wasn’t going to cry. I wasn’t even going to look upset. I was going to be cheerful.

Determined to block out what happened, I ignored my aching body as I trudged home. When I neared the front door, my mother ran outside, beaming. “Wow! You walked home without your sister for the first time. I’m so proud of you!”

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Vaneetha Rendall Risner

Vaneetha Rendall Risner is a TCW regular contributor. A writer, speaker, mother, Vaneetha is passionate about helping people find joy in the midst of suffering. You can join Vaneetha in conversation about choosing joy in the midst of suffering at DanceInTheRain.com.

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Beauty; Blame; Bullying; Disabilities; God's Love; Healing
Today's Christian Woman, September Week 2, 2014
Posted September 10, 2014

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